March 5, 2005 - Availability. For two days I am able to turn off my cell phone and become completely detached from the rest of the world, giving all of my attention to those who are immediately around me. I don't have to worry about what is going on tonite, where to go for dinner, who to hang out with. Instead, I am surrounded by friends and great food and no phone calls. It is such a relief to not have to worry about the things that are going on in my life for two days. I can enjoy the Amish woodwork, the smell of pine and mohoghany and cedar, the incredibly fresh food, and time spent learning that it is ok not knowing how the rest of the script called "My Life" is going to work out. Everyone around me is writing their own story without knowing what will be on the next page, and...that's ok. And finding out that everyone else is not as secure as I thought they were is such a relief.