March 3, 2005 - "Ebb and flow" was the phrase of the day. I started off having a good morning and afternoon. My boss piled on the work and guilt throughout the day, lowering my mood. In my soccer game after work, I scored a goal, but our team tied due to a last second goal scored by...our own goalie, kicking the ball away, having it bounce off of one of our players backs, and then back into our goal. I suppose I should just relax and enjoy life like everyone around me, but I really feel the drive to do something different than everyone else. I don't want to simply get a job in an office and get married, have kids, a few pets, and die. I think there is something more out there that is worth grabbing at, if only I knew what it was. My parents certainly sacrificed in their lives to make sure I would be able to do whatever I wanted when I grew up, and now that I'm 'growing up', I need to make some choices that will put me on the road to happiness and a fulfilled life. I just wish I knew which road to take.